I was clueless as to what should be the title of this post.
To begin with, I wanted to write why I have gone quiet, in blogging. But the happenings around us affect us so much (especially when it is a bomb blast in your city) that I can't stop myself for speaking about it.
Delhi experienced yet another bomb blast yesterday at the Delhi High Court, the heart of the city area and at a time when the security was already there due to the Parliament session. But no avail for the common man. The bomb ripped through many lives and many families. The pain is indescribable. What does a common man do? Should he learn to live in fear, constant fear... not knowing whether he'll return to his home safe in the evening or not? There were a lot of discussions going on, on the TV yesterday. I really wish something concrete comes out of the discussions, debates and statements issued.
My heart goes out to all the innocent people, common people like you and me who lost their lives and or got injured due the bomb blast yesterday.
Coming to myself, I am experiencing the phase of my life when all I want is to be quiet. I don't want to speak, or express what I think or feel. At times in life, you have to be really silent to hear what others are saying. Or may be, I should say, at times, you want to sit down and analyze as to where are you heading? what are you up to? how correct you were in your choices and more importantly, how correct you were in following a certain ideology for leading your life? Now is the time for me. I'm in doubt... about my beliefs, belief systems.
I think the best way, I think, a person can deal with this mental state is to - speak to a friend, get a clear and honest feedback. Second, to slow down and pull out of the situation which is troubling you. And thirdly, do some self analysis, and if that hurts a lot, rejuvenate yourself by things like listening to music or reading good books or anything which soothes you.
I'm undergoing the phase, which I've gone through earlier too. I'm questioning myself and unlearning a few things, to make way for something new to be learned. So, I know, it's toughening me and sculpting me for better. Better - only to make me fitter to survive in the world where it pays to be fake and street smart. Although, this is surely not my destination, but I guess, I'll HAVE to pass through this stretch.
Have you ever questioned your choices? your beliefs? Have you ever felt forced to evaluate as to what went wrong when your intentions were not bad in dealing with a person or a situation in personal life or in work life?
Do share your honest thoughts...
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